June 22nd is quickly approaching. That is the day of my back surgery. All days have been fine for me until, WAM, BAM this morning. I don't know what happened, I don't know why it is happening now but I am a bundle of nerves. Fear has set in.
As I type this my fingers are shaking and my stomach is rumbling. I'm truly praying that it is the three (3) cups of coffee I have had this morning. Lord Jesus please let that be it!
Now where did this fear come from is my question? I wasn't afraid when I made the decision to go through with the surgery? All I could focus on was getting better and stopping the pain that has encompassed me years.
Me and my prayer warriors(I have a team of prayer warriors that get down with it) have prayed over the doctor and the entire staff at the hospital; I believe in the power of prayer so that shouldn't be the source of my fear.
I have asked God to remove all negativity and naysayers from my atmosphere; there have been some that had nothing good to say...geesh. So what is wrong with my nerves???? Is this normal? Sometimes I wonder if I'm normal but that is another blog..hahahaha
So, my HALO (Humble and Loving Others) family, help me! Help me to answer these questions. My mind wondered to the famous quote given by FD Roosevelt during his inaugural speech...the only thing we have to fear is fear itself. Then the Holy Spirit whispered in my ear, 2 Timothy 1:7; For God did not give us a spirit of fear, but a spirit of power, of love, and of sound mind.
Pray for the sister(me) whose mind is in a thousand places this morning. Be Blessed and may God continue to Bless us all.
Sunday, June 19, 2011
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
Friends
I have gone through my share of friends in my lifetime. Some have stuck around for the long haul, some left as soon as the heat got turned up but through it all I have learned that a girl need friends. Not just any friend but a Real friend.
Friends should first of all show their self friendly before being a friend. You have to know how to treat others if you want to get the same in return. I do my best to be good to others because I know that I will need someone to be good to me.
I have friends that are trustworthy and geniune. I have friends that I can call on and say, "girl we need to pray now!" and just like that we are praying. I have friends that I can call and say, "I need to scream" and just like that they are listening to me scream. Yes, indeed, friends are needed.
A friend can be your sister, mother, aunt, co-worker, daughter, or whoever you have formed that bond with. In a lot of cases it can be a man. I do have some good male friends as well, but a lot of times they don't soothe me like my girl friends can.
Then you have those "bad" friends that are just there dumping whatever unhealthy nonsense they can dump. Those are the ones that should be weeded out of your life. If that friendship is not a healthy one (even healthy ones have problems but not deadly, poisonous problems) then weed it right on out of your life. One thing I have learned is that people come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. Everyone is not meant to be there forever wrecking havoc.
I thank God for teaching me the real meaning of being a friend and placing the right friends in my life. If I didn't have these friends, who could I scream, cry, and laugh with all in the same conversation. Thank you friends.
What about you? Do you have healthy friends? Are you showing yourself friendly? Or just maybe its time to do some weeding so you can move on to more healthier enjoyment.
May God continue to bless us all!
Friends should first of all show their self friendly before being a friend. You have to know how to treat others if you want to get the same in return. I do my best to be good to others because I know that I will need someone to be good to me.
I have friends that are trustworthy and geniune. I have friends that I can call on and say, "girl we need to pray now!" and just like that we are praying. I have friends that I can call and say, "I need to scream" and just like that they are listening to me scream. Yes, indeed, friends are needed.
A friend can be your sister, mother, aunt, co-worker, daughter, or whoever you have formed that bond with. In a lot of cases it can be a man. I do have some good male friends as well, but a lot of times they don't soothe me like my girl friends can.
Then you have those "bad" friends that are just there dumping whatever unhealthy nonsense they can dump. Those are the ones that should be weeded out of your life. If that friendship is not a healthy one (even healthy ones have problems but not deadly, poisonous problems) then weed it right on out of your life. One thing I have learned is that people come into your life for a reason, a season, or a lifetime. Everyone is not meant to be there forever wrecking havoc.
I thank God for teaching me the real meaning of being a friend and placing the right friends in my life. If I didn't have these friends, who could I scream, cry, and laugh with all in the same conversation. Thank you friends.
What about you? Do you have healthy friends? Are you showing yourself friendly? Or just maybe its time to do some weeding so you can move on to more healthier enjoyment.
May God continue to bless us all!
Monday, June 6, 2011
Journey to a better back
Soon I will be having back surgery. I have had problems with my back for a long time now and it is time. I plan to blog about this journey because everyday seems to bring on something new.
This past Saturday, after being off my meds for one day, the pain hit me so hard I wanted to cut my right leg off. All I could do was walk and pray, pray and walk. (I have to be off the pain meds for 2 weeks prior to surgery. This will decrease the risk of bleeding or something like that I am not the doctor just following orders.)
Anywhoo, on Saturday I realized that this 2 week journey without pain meds will surely make me rely on God. I'm sure to be having many conversations with Him about me and how He can take this pain from me. I also believe this will be a great time for me to really get this listening for Gods voice mastered. (See prior blog)
So knowing that God is going to get the glory out of all of this is making me feel better already. Stay tuned.
May God continue to bless us all!
This past Saturday, after being off my meds for one day, the pain hit me so hard I wanted to cut my right leg off. All I could do was walk and pray, pray and walk. (I have to be off the pain meds for 2 weeks prior to surgery. This will decrease the risk of bleeding or something like that I am not the doctor just following orders.)
Anywhoo, on Saturday I realized that this 2 week journey without pain meds will surely make me rely on God. I'm sure to be having many conversations with Him about me and how He can take this pain from me. I also believe this will be a great time for me to really get this listening for Gods voice mastered. (See prior blog)
So knowing that God is going to get the glory out of all of this is making me feel better already. Stay tuned.
May God continue to bless us all!
Listening
As a family we have a women's bible study. For the next couple of months we will be studying from a book written by Priscilla Shirer titled Discerning the Voice of God How to Recognize when God Speaks.
When my aunt presented this book to us, I was like okay I got this. This will be easy. NOT! Listening is an art. Listening is something we have to really concentrate on.
What I have found out is that during the time I am suppose to be quiet and listening, my mind is racing with a thousand thoughts and those thoughts are not God. I have a tendency to sit quiet, but I don't make my mind be quiet. I let it go on and on and on. All kinds of things be rushing through my mind and I would at times forget what I was suppose to be doing...Listening!
As a young girl I would argue a lot with my mother. She would say, "Dena you don't listen." Of course, I would shout back that I do and that she just don't understand. I really just had to have the last word but that's another story. As I have grown, I now know that "Dena just didn't listen!"
God can speak to us in so many ways. It can be the mother talking to the child. It can be the soft whisper of the bird chirping. It can be the calming feeling in your spirit. We just have to listen and receive. Learning to block everything out can be hard. It started out being a really difficult thing for me but as the days go on it is getting easier. Hearing God speak to you is a wonderful, wonderful feeling. It can bring a feeling to you that surely will leave you feeling glorious!
Are you listening or are you just sitting there? Open up your ears, turn off the outside for a few minutes and listen. You may be surprised by what you hear!
May God continue to bless us.
When my aunt presented this book to us, I was like okay I got this. This will be easy. NOT! Listening is an art. Listening is something we have to really concentrate on.
What I have found out is that during the time I am suppose to be quiet and listening, my mind is racing with a thousand thoughts and those thoughts are not God. I have a tendency to sit quiet, but I don't make my mind be quiet. I let it go on and on and on. All kinds of things be rushing through my mind and I would at times forget what I was suppose to be doing...Listening!
As a young girl I would argue a lot with my mother. She would say, "Dena you don't listen." Of course, I would shout back that I do and that she just don't understand. I really just had to have the last word but that's another story. As I have grown, I now know that "Dena just didn't listen!"
God can speak to us in so many ways. It can be the mother talking to the child. It can be the soft whisper of the bird chirping. It can be the calming feeling in your spirit. We just have to listen and receive. Learning to block everything out can be hard. It started out being a really difficult thing for me but as the days go on it is getting easier. Hearing God speak to you is a wonderful, wonderful feeling. It can bring a feeling to you that surely will leave you feeling glorious!
Are you listening or are you just sitting there? Open up your ears, turn off the outside for a few minutes and listen. You may be surprised by what you hear!
May God continue to bless us.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)